18th September 2006,
4.32pm Monday. It's time to go home. Rain heavily today, got wet running to coffee shop for breakfast this morning. The weekends was good. Fri, went for CG, supper with Benji, Winnie and Andrew, then Saturday work the whole day for eTHIS training. Sunday is the Play "My Father, My Hero" organised by the CATs (Creative Arts Trooper Group). Manage to invite a non-Christian friend to the Play and the message is good- about God as our heavenly Daddy that loves us unconditionally, agape Love.
The title for my blog today is about 'resting'. I have a verse craved on a glass, a sovenior given by friend- written on this verse: "In quietness and in Confidence shall be your strength" (Isaiah 30:15). I need to come rested quietly in His Presence and assurance of His love. Life pace has been very fast- I couldn't catch up and many times just tag along, and flow with the crowd. Like a little child that just venture into the unknown, trying to get into the culture and trying to adapt with the environment- searching for more, and compromising here and there, getting acceptance from others, running around without direction, not sure where I am heading- getting LOST! Yet, His hands never let me go, allowing me to go through the wandering land, learning to walk, run and fly- then fall flat and soar up again. He is my all in all, my security, my provision. There is none like Him, no one else can touch my heart like He do. He satisfies, He satisfies, He satisfies my desire. I just need to hold on to that truth and not to be drown in pity party sorrows. Laerning to love myself and pampered myself- also discipline in my walk with Him. Not entertaining the lies of the enemies, but to only believe what the Bible said about me, what God sees in me. Yes, I'm holding on- and here am I, Lord, take me.
Forgive me Daddy, for doubting You and angry...such childish attitude, I wanna change. I come afresh I pray Lord help me to start afresh, only to please You, only to love You, to hear Your voice, to fall in Love again- bring me deeper, deeper in love with You...Jesus hold me close in Your embrace....no more pity party, no more sorrows- but victory, joy and love.
